Today I met you. Although you're not here in front of me, but I always see your shadow.
It was weird because I've seen you for a few times these few days.
I don't know this feeling. Miss? Maybe but I don't know.
To see you here was shocking for me despite you and I are not standing in the same edge of the world.
Your happiness is my happiness bacause I can't give you one.
Love is the greatest gift from God and you are one of the few who can use it wisely.
To see you this few days was a surprising incident for me. We agreeed to not contact each other anyomore. I was the one who forced you to do it, because I know how it will make all of us feel.
Today I open your blog and I open the YouTube link you left for me back then. I realised how much special I was to you and yet it's too late. Tears of I don't know what fell down my eyes. But i'm glad i was one of the special people in your life.
Experience does not make me brave to make new decision instead it makes me tough and hard to trust people. Weird, I was too cautious with you back then that I never give you a chance.
When you ask me to make a quick and rush decision makes me confuse and scared. It was hell on earth to me. But I guess it was written like that to me, to us from God. I am still not ready and i'm not sure if you'll find happiness with me knowing that I have more guy friends then girl friends.
I'm a spoiled girl and all I want is to be pampered and to be near the person that is going to be the ONE for me.
Now that you find love, all I want is to see your happiness and tears of joy. Not your loneliness and tears of sad.
Miss is a word I can use right now although I never use it before to you.
A beautiful soul like you deserves a happy ending. And that's why I always pray for your happiness whenever I thought about you.
This is the only place I can express because I don't want to disturb your life.
If one day we meet again, I hope I can hear any good news from you :)
Till then
